what goes around comes around.

And it's you that makes it hard to let go

Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Sometimes you can't make it

The best you can do is to fake it

Sometimes you can't make it on your own

U2 -Sometimes you can't make it on your own

i am reading the other side of the story by Marian Keyes now. i really like her books and i think i've read all of them so far. i was reading it just now (and will continue reading more later) and i read a part of it that really gave me a good fright. because i am/was in such a similar and practically identical situation. so many frightfully real statements in the book i could totally relate to it. (this is where you call/text me, raro)

so anyway, bio lab was pretty basic today. basic but still fun compared to the utterly dreary physics lab i had to endure for two years. (now you keen bio A1 students dont start laughing here) we had to scrape cells from the insides of our cheeks to view under the microscope. and it didnt work for brad. Why? He had a smoke just before lab and pretty much killed all the surface cells in his cheek. He had to use someone else's cheek cells for the lab. smoking is so horrible. brad's experience just goes to show how horrible smoking is to your body, your cells, whatever. (including your TEETH) yellowing teeth is so uncool. just as an afternote: brad was still unfazed about this significant to me(but obviously not to him) and was lighting up a new cigarette after lab while talking to us. afterafternote: he is supposed to be quitting smoking.

school was slack today :) so happy. lab and then two lectures and then home at 3! i love fridays now! and i forced myself to stay awake instead of napping so that i can sleep early tonight. no more late-night-fridays for now. instead i read my book, helped chess vacuum the floors, toilet-ducked the loos and did the laundry. Yes friends, Fridays are maria-days.

just as a thought: i read blogs, and when i do, it really strikes me how materialistic and downright wanting some people can be. i'm not talking about anyone in particular, so please dont be offended and think that i'm talking about you.

how can we keep wanting more and more material possessions as we see them? i see wishlists on peoples blogs and its like a new top, a new phone, a new computer and stuff like that. and its fine, they are allowed to post whatever on their blogs, but dont people ever get tired of wanting and wanting things? will we ever sit back and look and see how blessed we are with everything we have? as new trends roll in every season, we will never be pleased, never be satisfied with what we have. i'm not saying i'm perfect, i'm far from it. but i have had my moments where people ask me what i want for christmas or my birthday, and i can't pinpoint exactly what i really desire. sure, a new top or a new bag might be nice, but its not something i really want you know? when my friends asked, i couldn't give them an answer because i was so content in my then-situation, although some people might laugh at the size of my wardrobe or my apparent lack of other worldly goods.

i like the feeling you get when you dont want anything because in your heart you feel you've got all you could ever need. i think the feeling of satisfaction and contentment of your current situation by far surpasses the temporary happiness gained from the purchase of an expensive top or bag.

I'm sorry for this ramble and i forgive you if you got lost halfway and gave up reading. i apologise if its one-sided and everything an essay is not supposed to be. (its not supposed to be an essay anyway) it's just a string thoughts in my head thrown up into my blog.

enough for now, i sacrificed watching my wife and kids because i was having too much fun blogging and talking to xiao. thank god for xiao and i love chatting with her because it really makes me feel at home and its really funny too. ;)