and so it is

The exams were over and there was no more studying to do, most of my year's text had been recycled and so there was nothing urgent to rid my room of, Hans had left and there was not much to do except to pack my bags to go home. But I didn't feel like it.

So today I opened my first book in many many months, eager to immerse myself into different world away from reality. And the first lines of the first chapter read:

"There is a roar of engines,a moment when gravity pulls me back, and then New Zealand is shed like a skin. It floats mottled green on the Pacific Ocean as I soar towards thesun. When the plane touches down at Sydney Airport, my heart hits the ground with a thump." - Embracing the Dragon

I was like WHOA, that is like the perfect description of me tomorrow. Initially I was going to read it on the plane tmr on the way to Syd, but I think if I started it tmr while flying, I would have been really really thrown off by it's accuracy in relation to my life. I have another book to read and I'm really excited in a supergeek way to immerse myself in book after book over summer, from mysteries to autobiographies to anything! Even the newspaper at home I miss. I have seriously deprived myself of books this year.

So today midday it finally sunk into me that Hans had gone and not trying to sound retarded and mushy, but I seriously felt like I had lost a limb. The past few weeks saw Hans and I functioning as a working pair, complementing each other as we ran errands, studied, and just spent time together. We bickered but it only made us learn to be more aware of the other. Suddenly today I felt slightly lost walking around as time inched forward, but I know that it will only get better from here. It did not help that I felt tired, drained and week from my period and lack of sleep, I felt like chess today. Hahah (: