the weekend that zipped by before my sweet eyes

[11pm update]i just watched bits of John Q in between CSI and criminal intent and its SUCH a sad sad movie i nearly died. if i had watched the whole movie at one shot i would have really cried my eyeballies out. haha

i still remember how happy i was that friday was finally here. i think i got an easy bargain this week because friday came so fast. now its sunday night, with two tests the coming week looming over me that i have to do well for. aiiik. chess and i are now in the same class and its going to be so much easier now. class at 1030 tmr so i dont have to wake up till like 945! yay!

i was so down yesterday cos i really really missed my friends in singapore. i miss my school girlfriends because they are really the ones that know me inside out, and whom i've spent years goofing around with. no friendship i have here (obviously) compares to my friends in singapore. 10 kiwi friends don't even make 1 sgp friend.

in school, there are 3 social circles. the muslims from the middle-east, the ultra cheena-pok chinese, and the kiwis. and guess what, we don't fit in anywhere. we're not muslim and we dont know arabic, we don't speak chinese fluently and melodiously, and the most obvious, we're not white. actually maybe chess is half-white, but still.. hahahaa. and it's hard to fit in, but im really trying. in mg, im used to friends being brought up the same way i am, having the same general flow of thoughts, and being familiar with my mannerisms and such. here, i have to be careful i don't offend anyone, and obviously, we're all completely different. i have more arabic friends than chinese friends. soon im going to be speaking more arabic than chinese.

i'm not saying the people are unfriendly (they're not), but it's really taking a different tact when trying to make friends. i dont think i sound like im making sense, so if you get me, good :) i think i just feel weary cos i know i have to build up friendships from scratch here and i just left super friends in singapore. BUT i know im superblessed to get the chance to come out here, when others dont even get the option to, and i thank god for that. im just weary cos i can't call friends here at the drop of a hat just cos im bored. hopefully it'll come to that stage one day, but for now, all you reading this, i miss you guys like crazy. thank god for chess for who without, i would be like a fish out of the water flopping helplessly on the ground.

i count my blessings everyday and im grateful for all i have. i just want one more blessing! for my friends to suddenly appear here before my eyes and attend the school i attend. hhaha. i wish!

to my lovelies who tagged: i love you guys so much and get your arses here now! ;)

chess and maryam and dena are sick. from me most probably. we thought chess was safe cos she hadn't gotten sick even though even jen got sick. then a week after me she gets sick. and maryam and dena too. so it must be me :S sollies!

time to shower and start with work. i love and miss you guys so much and don't have too much fun without me :( i miss you amos like crazy, and try as i may i can't get over you.